Into the consciousness of a woman with mental health afflictions; just trying to open up to people, and make a connection to the outside world. With an open mind, and an open heart. Welcome!
Coming from a small town into a big city I know nothing about has been an overwhelming and exhausting experience. Asking for help feels like a feat that is hard to come by. I didn't know anything; was uneducated on how to find my way around, and with some of the resources provided, it didn't feel like it was helpful enough. I've wasted my own resources, especially on people who were just using me. Food and money feel like commodities when you become homeless.. and proper shelter (including a clean comfortable atmosphere with running utilities). I've never lived in a perfect setting. No privacy, not being stolen from, having enough food, no worries about finances or appliances breaking down, never having to worry about water troubles, rodent or bug problems, infestations, having to climb up flights of stairs, places being in nearby vicinities, unnecessary rules and procedures, being around heartless and rude people, so much to list... Right now, what I yearn for most, ...
I thought you were saving me. You had me fooled. I opened up to you.. Conversated with you hours on end.. Poured my heart out. Thought about you constantly, daily Tried reaching out.. And suddenly You turned into something I didn't know anymore. You broke my heart. All of you. What the hell happened? It was all a facade.
Kenya Elise Martin You have been my biggest supporter My close confidant I can tell and know that you truly, honestly care for and love me I know I haven't been the best to deal with sometimes But you have never abandoned me And left me to fend for myself. Even though I am your bigger sister, You are understanding and don't make me feel like a burden. Without you, I don't know where I'd be I am lucky to have you in my life. Like I always said One day, you are going to be famous! I love you
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